Friday, December 13, 2013

untitled



To be wrapped in you again,
To be able to breathe the same air
You breathe.
I can touch you with my hands.
My lips cannot stop kissing you.

The world is drunken and spinning.
And so are we.

Sunday, December 8, 2013

possessions


kiss the ellipsis that hangs on the edge
of my lips.
swallow the universe
in my mouth.
your hands are soft around my neck
and I know that
you are mine.
you are mine, you are mine, you are mine.
i’ve never truly understood what that meant
until you. 

Friday, November 15, 2013

dear you,



I’m not making this up, or trying to be romantic, or poetic. Whenever we fight, or to put it more accurately, whenever I fight with you, my heart tightens up and my lungs feel like they’re about to dissolve into foam. It sounds poetic and beautiful, but it really does happen. Maybe that’s what being broken hearted feels like. I don’t know.

But I do know that I’m a monster in arguments and I can be a bitch sometimes. I know that I can turn extremely hard and cold but if you only touched me with your fingertips I would collapse into a shameful, pathetic sobbing mess that would sometimes last for hours. I would cry so much I wouldn’t be able to breathe and start to hyperventilate. But you know that already; you’ve seen it all before.

Nabokov wrote, “Was she really beautiful? Was she at least what they call attractive? She was exasperation, she was torture.” And I am. I am exasperation and I am torture and I don’t know why you love me. And you do make me happy. Just because I get sad sometimes doesn’t mean that you’ve failed in making me happy; in fact, I’m a lot happier than I was before I met you. So stop beating yourself up whenever I get sad.

You’ve made me happier than I ever was, or ever will be. And I love you.